Crush[ed]

do know what i hate about crushes... like what i really REALLY hate about crushes.

so its Boom! you meet this guy, you know nothing about him but physically you are attracted to him. its like looking at him just makes the sun shine alittle brighter. so then you begin to talk, you know the "whats your favorite color, describe urself as the perfect person" game and by the end of it you are love struck. in reality you know nothing about eachother. first impressions tend to be majestically fabricated. on both sides of the magic stick people reinvent themselves. the girl tells the guy what he wants as the guy does for the girl. so anyway after the first conversations you are left wanting more. i know most crushes leave you over analyzing the life you and ur crush could have. you over think it, over do it, over EVERYTHING it. you become hopeful, like really hopeful. you have a few good times and you think to urself this could really be perfect, if "insert crush name" made more of an effort. now here comes what i hate, well two things that tend to happen, not always but most of the time. so either you realize that you dont even really like the person, just what you created them to be. it hits you that you dont even want to hear them speak and bash your head against the wall for making him/her your everything for 15.2 seconds aka the longest period of your life. or it becomes a deadend and goes NO where. it makes you think "what is there not to want" and your re evaluate yourself over and over again and it sucks and it hurts and its not fun at all. now ofcourse this is just one situation but ive seen so many go through it, ive gone through and then months later it hits me like -__- why even do that .

i dont know but maybe it goes back to the chase, the whole what if moments. everyone likes to hold the world in their own hands and with crushes its easy to create this fairy tail in ones head. to eliminate every negative characteristic. whatever the case may be crushes crush ur spirit. but you have to get back up. live it off. and laugh about it